Physically kind of up and down, energy, hip, and stomach wise. Still, I think I am recovering in most areas. Could be a while though. My vision has been off for ages but I have been too sick, or distracted to do anything about it. I have an eye test next week to make sure it's not physical, but I am almost certain that it is due to Lamictal as it started around the time I started it and has only gotten worse being on this high dose. Due to this I am slowly reducing my dose from tomorrow. Seeing my pdoc in two weeks so I can talk to him about it. I really doubt it is helping me at all anyway. I was mad mixed psychotic on it and things only changed when Geodon was added. I hate being on meds as it is, never alone four pretty heavy ones.

Today is a beautiful late autumn day. Shorts and t-shirt weather. It shouldn't be so (the weather has been crazy odd these last 12 months at least), but I am going to enjoy it. Tomorrow I am going for a light swim in the ocean (which is actually much colder as it was in summer which is as it should be). Still singing with a smile in my car. Bouncing my head to the beat. Yesterday I finally picked up my guitar after many silent weeks. Amazingly I started writing a song. Nothing to keep but it is amazing as I haven't written anything for fifteen years. My mojo died. This excites me. I feel alive again. The best bit is that all this is happening while I am stable.