So today my T called me in for some sort of an emergency session. I dont know what she expects but i bet she'll be very disappointed. Its a goodbye session. I wrote her letters, i have worked on my plan, i have my mind set and now its just a matter of waiting for the right time. I never was as ready as i am now. Im serious. I never thought living alonecpuld be so hard, difficult, sad and less fulfilling than i ever thought. Im.also afraid of my new neoghbors and i cant go on with the job i have but without that i'll lose my flat and dont want to go back with my parents. Not another failure and i dont want to go ip. Ive outweightedy energies and now i cant go on anymore. Sorry for disappointing everyone. I'll still be around for as long as i have the strength to. Thank you for your support.