My T let me go.

in session, she let me vent and cry. she read my letters and said or did nothing. nothing that mattered anyway. she knows whats going to happen and she said or did nothing at all. she just let me go after (while crying), i got out of myself all i had inside. like i never did before. while quietly sheding tears on her carpet (i asked her to lie down and i covered my face with my hood)..

it was my last attempt, my last resort, she was my last hope. she let me go. we parted forever.

we parted. i'll never see her again. i'll never hear her voice again. she'll never see me again. or my quiet tears. she'll never hear my voice again. no more calls, no more texts. nothing. gone. disappeared.

she said she's not mad at me, that she understands me even if im too stubborn to give my life a chance to change. i do not believe it is possible. i tried everything and im done.

she said that if she'll have to talk with my parents she will. bless her.

at the end, i shooke her hand, thanked her for everything and thats all. end of story.

as i always said, nobody can save you if you dont want it…. maybe i dont want it or not enough...