I noticed no one has yet commented on this, but I wanted to send love and support your way. Even if I can't help with your problems, the fact that you're scared and feeling like you want to end it all is alone worth a message... a reminder that you ARE important and you WILL get through these tough times.

I have PCOS and after years of trying to conceive, I haven't had any luck. I know the feeling of emptiness you might feel, but you are not alone. I'm not sure what medical situation you have going on, but know that somewhere there are others feeling that way too. I suggest looking for a support group (in person or online) so you can connect with others.

If your significant other feels that way, then maybe it isn't meant to be. Speaking only from my experience, I had a boyfriend I thought I was going to spend my life with, but when I couldn't conceive... things came to an end pretty abruptly. I felt like my world was going to crash. Five years later I am married to an understanding man who never gives up on me, even if we never have children. Remember that your self worth is more than your medical condition. Remember that there are people out there that understand and ready to support you. Anyone who is going to ghost you after such a scary moment in your life isn't worth your time or love.

So take a deep breath. Remember that you're stronger than the feelings and self doubt and exhaustion. You're stronger than the hiccups in the road. Most importantly, even though you don't feel it right now, you WILL overcome the struggles you're facing. It won't be overnight, but it will happen.

And if that doesn't help, know that someone across the world is rooting for you! You've got this! Be gentle with yourself. Love yourself for everything - the good and bad. Take it one day at a time, one little win, one positive thought.