“I don't believe he will kiss me again since his reputation as one of the leading doctors in his field is incredibly important to him. But if he wants to hug me as he usually does, I will let him. At this point I'm so afraid to loose him as my doctor. I just want him to be happy to see me, enjoy seeing me, etc. up to the point where he feels less inclined to dismiss me from his practice. Had we not hugged and kissed and had there not been all the physical contact in my consult with him last week, I had already been kicked out. As he was not planning in the least to treat me anymore when I saw him last week. But when I in despair about his abandonment hugged him, and he responded with hugs and kisses and comments how attractive he thought I was. Then he seemed open again to having me as his patient. “

Hello,
I’m sorry to learn you’ve made these decisions to let him do -whatever- just to stay on his good side.

I hope you will continue to seek out a woman therapist to help you unwrap this unhealthy relationship.