It seems to me in my perception ive always been a burden. Sounds like i should be posting in depression but i posted here because i think im a burden because of my anxieties.

I guess i dont know what my diagnoses are because they change with the change of therapists. Sometimes i have social anxiety, sometimes i have avoidant personality disorder. Sometimes i have general anxiety disorder. Sometimes i have all three and even more thrown in. Whats the truth? I dunno.

What i do know is how it effects those around me. It takes a heavy toll out of their lives to include me in theirs. My ex broke up with me a couple weeks ago and is doing lots better. My parents took me back in and i can see the strain already. I dont have any idea what i could do. Obviously if i like to be left alone i should become independent but with leaving the house being a big deal and being around people i dont know being a HUGE deal i feel stuck. I feel like the hot potato being passed around and everyone who touches it gets burned yet i dont wanna burn anyone! I feel like im destroying peoples lives when all i want to do is be left alone.

Ive been in therapy for a couple years. Ive tried some of the meds(i have used marijuana in the past so they are reluctant to give me addictive meds most often). I feel like its not working and the real reason im crazy is because i keep going back. I wish they had stats out there for how long this should take.