I guess the diagnosis doesn't really matter as long as I'm in treatment, right? Maybe I shouldn't focus on the name as much.

I think I'm just scared. I am now realizing that the doctors I worked with before just DID NOT LISTEN, and because of that, it made me worse not better. I'm just scared of that happening again. But I think I got a good one this time...I hope! Seemed nice enough and seemed understanding of my troubles getting help before. Hopefully I can make it work this time.

Not on any meds yet...and I think I'm happy about that. In a way, yeah, I want the 'quick fix'....but the meds really messed me up last time. Yeah, the guy I'm seeing is a Psychologist, not licensed to do meds, but I was fully expecting him to get me an appt. right then and there with a Pdoc for meds. He didn't. I think I'm happy. I don't want them pushing pills at me until I really know what's going on. If it's Bipolar, then I sure as hell shouldn't be on anti-depressants. But if it's not Bipolar...then I shouldn't really be on the bipolar meds. If that makes any sense...

And from what I read about Borderline, if that really is what I ahve...meds won't help much anyway, right?

I just need to focus on getting better. Do what I can on my own. Try to stay positive, try to focus, try to control my impulsive risky behaviors.