This kind of mind game upsets me on your behalf. I keep coming back to my T and I being peers in age and education, and sometimes referring him clients bc he is newer in town. I work 6 or 7 days a week; he works four days a week. I answer all my emails from clientsl he ??? is too busy doing self care? Anytime I hear a T on Reddit complaining they dont have enough clients, I just shake my head. The 45 minute hour and the above-email and all of it seems too hard for an average person in my state to grasp with enthusiasm if they are new to therapy. It is all a little precious and stylized. Maybe you are the expert on yourself, and right now you need to email and feel what it is like to get a steady, caring response?