Welcome to PC. With a triggering post like this you may not get many comments (and please don't feel bad about that), but there are a lot of caring people here so keep posting here, on other posts, or create new posts.

As for your situation you have my deepest sympathies. It hurts to hear you are going through so much. I don't have any solutions for you as it is such a complex situation but staying alive should be your number one priority. You seem like a beautiful soul who has suffered too much.

Not to compare suffering but I have had times in my life that were a perfect storm of hellish events and illness. A few years ago I was trapped living with my husband (now ex) and his parents. I was extremely ill both physically and mentally and wasn't getting the help I needed. On top of that the parents, especially the father, were psychologically abusive to me. The father is a narcissist but I had no idea then. I was isolated, immobilised and removed from all my support network. Eventually it was too much and I attempted suicide. This only made their treatment of me worse. My husband was under their spell and couldn't see what was happening. He refused to move out and I didn't want to leave him.

Now, eight years after leaving that place, I have begun finding a new life and a sense of peace and thankfulness that I survived. I guess what I am saying is don't give up. Problem solve, keep writing even if it only for yourself, cling on to what hope you can find.