I'm so sorry that you're going through ALL OF THIS, golden_eve! I understand it must ber VERY hard and painful for you! Hang in there! I'm sure you'll be able to get through ALL OF THIS! It DOES seem like you two really love each other! Unfortunately True Love can have its moments of difficulties as well! Please NEVER give up hope though, ok? I'm sure you'll both be able to figure it out one way or another! Please feel free to vent here! We're here to listen to you! WE WON'T JUDGE YOU! I PROMISE YOU ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! Please keep us updated as much as you possibly can if you want to! WE ALL CARE ABOUT YO! THAT'S A PROMISE! Wish you good luck! Let us know how things are going for you, ok? WE DO CARE! Sending many kind, safe, sweet, warm and WONDERFUL hugs to BOTH you and your husband, golden_eve, JUST LIKE YOU BOTH ARE!