Well, here I am in the pit again for about the zillionth time. Tired of digging my way out. I know I'm not alone and just wish someone would tell me an easy way. I don't have a pdoc. I'm from Mississippi and it's hard to find one here. The MHC doesn't take my insurance so it's $150 a pop no matter who I talk to or what their credentials are. The last time I went I saw a PNP who obviously had not read my chart b/c he started talking about how wonderful it was to be able to help my MIL when she is one of my biggest "downers/stressors" or whatever you want to call them. I felt wounded and raw after that. Saw no need to go back. Spill my guts and they don't care enough to read what I've said? Nah. Too much $$ for that. Just too tired. I pray and believe it will be better one day. Take 20 mg. Lexapro a day and 1 mg. Lorazepam twice a day. On hormones for menopause and diabetic medication. DX: Major Depression Recurrent, Anxiety/Panic d/o, PTSD.