For me, I've always had more maternal attachment issues like with teachers, T's etc. I think because my Dad was a good enough Dad, but my Mom had a lot of problems being mentally ill and struggling so much, I didn't feel like I got enough love from my Mom. I do now. But not when I was growing up. I tried to find ways to get that love from my Mom, but it wasn't enough and I was left with a huge hole/scar that I now use mal-adaptive measures like SH to fill. For me, it all came down to the relationship with my Mom and all the things I missed out on as a kid. And it's weird because even though we have a good but complicated relationship now, it doesn't fix what happened to me as a kid because of her mental illness and instability. So I attach to females in authority, trying to fulfill those needs from long ago. Maybe its something like that for you? HUGS Kit