I'm so sorry that you're feeling empty, June55! I can certainly relate to what you've just wrote like the wise and wonderful SilverTrees has already wisely said better than I ever could! I hope you'll be able to find peace and serenity one way or another! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP! Life can be wonderful! I'd suggest to try to find as many distractions as you possibly can! Hopefully that will make you feel a little bit better! Sending many kind, safe, sweet, warm and WONDERFUL hugs TO YOU, June55, JUST LIKE YOU ARE!