i am essentially housebound. i force myself to let my hubby take me to our family dr once a month because that is the only way i can get my xanax, restoril and pain meds refilled. i am trying to get to a place where i can at least go out with my husband for a drive or something. been stuck in the house for almost 2 years now.

i have tried uncovering the windows and doors, but sit in my bedroom having panic attacks thinking they are watching me, don't know who "they" are though. keeping it all covered does help, at least i can move around the house a little.

not currently in therapy, and the ssri i was taking made the anxiety worse so i stopped taking it. hubby was injured and disabled in 93 so i was the bread winner, and i am currently not able to afford any sort of medical help other than gp who works with me on payment etc cause he's been my dr for 17 years. soon as i finally get my ssa disability through then i hopefully will be able to get more professional help.

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