Spent my night in the drunk tank, most of the time banging my head, soaking wet laying in a puddle of all the water I spilled. Apparently I was throwing things at home and talking about SI. I dont remember any of that and was very mad that I was locked up because I didnt know I was talking and acting that way. At least I sent my kids to my Dads for the night before things got out of control.
My T isnt around this week and pdoc didnt call me back so I guess I will increase the seroquel tonight since I didnt get to take any last night like I planned.
Ended up missing my abdominal ultrasound this morning since I was locked up and have to wait over a month to get in again.
Ive being going to jiu jitsu and tomorrow is gonna hurt more than ever because I am covered in bruises, even my palms and heels managed to get bruises and every part of my head except the top is banged up and tender. Plus my GP goes too and she knows about last night so it will be embarassing on top of the pain. I still want to go though, I have too much energy to sit at home without people and exercise.
No more booze for me....
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Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Alcohol Use Disorder
Meds:
Depakote
Welbutrin
Abilify
I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted
to lie with my hands turned up and be
utterly empty. How free it is,
you have no idea how free.
- Sylvia Plath
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