I know first hand about this kind of anxiety. I don't know if you live in the US but if you do there may be a mental health crisis center in your city. Also since you're a college student they may have a health center on campus that can point you in the right direction. Psychotherapy and psych meds have helped me. I don't know if your area has low cost counseling, but hopefully one of these clinics would know. Also in the US if you call 211 on your phone they have a list of resources or you can look up 211 on your computer. As for psych meds when I couldn't afford them my doctor filled out forms and I got my meds for free from the pharmaceutical companies. And lastly when I needed to be hospitalized in the psych unit many years ago and I didn't have any money they eventually wrote the bills off. My heart goes out to you. Please reach out - you're worth it.