Just seeing this post. I assume you've already written your stuff but I will comment anyway

First... ask yourself why do you consider T's "authority figures"? Your own T has even told you he isn't. Is this REALLY about "authority figures" or something else? It's a bit interesting that you only have this issue with men but you have alot of issues from the past with your mom. I feel like if things are better, good with your dad now, it's likely not this at all anymore. I still think it's probably likely related to what I suggested before, and it's why you seek love/attention from other men. Maybe talking to T about that part and how you can work on some possible solutions for it might be worth it.

Second... we are very different people in our past and now. Every teenager is going through tough stuff etc, The thing is, those things made you who you are today. good or bad. Without all those experiences you would be a different LT today. I try to remind myself
of that stuff often when I get stuck on stuff from the past.

Lastly... when it comes to journaling, I find it best to not over think, just write whatever comes to mind, be present with your feelings even if it doesn't always make sense. It might be more helpful to write in "letter form" such as .... Dear Ex T... and then just write.

Hopefully you are able to work through this mindset of authority figure T stuff, I feel like it keeps getting you "stuck"... so maybe your T can help you. I am terrible with words as you know and I am not really wanting to post on PC much anymore but I consider you a friend and found this post interesting so I wanted to pop in, I don't mean any offense by my words. Have a good session today either way and I hope that the journalling is helpful to you