Hi, Catrionn,
You can learn to love your real self. I have accomplished that in my life. What you have written is a lot to look at all at once. Did any answers bubble up in your mind to shed light on this once you got it out and on paper, so to speak?
Is there a chance someone you grew up with taught you to not value yourself?
Your technical writing covers which topics?
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