IslandMedic, I was wondering if you like to read? I understand those struggles as well, but I have found that God's hand reaches you wherever you are, in the silence of your room or the chaos that's happening around you. I ask about reading because many times we pray and read our Bibles and just can't seem to get past that wall that hinders our climb. I you get that lost love feeling Max Lucado has a book called "A Love Worth Giving" that brings it close to heart.

Also, I know there are times when we are confronted by people who can cause us to question what we believe - that God is real, Jesus lived, died and rose again, etc. Recently my faith was reaffirmed during an Apologetics class I took. We had two books - "The Case for Faith" and "The Case for Christ" - that blessed my spirit. I would encourage any Christian to at least read the 1st three chapters.

I believe that you will reach your complete breakthrough and pray that all those meds will no longer be needed, because He will be your peace of mind. As you said, you saw the life's beauty again. I hope this gave you some encouragement and that you stay golden...