You are not alone. I am sure many have read this. You, yourself, said you were not expecting answers from this particular post.

I too wonder if the challenges I have with my family are because God is teaching me lessons I need. Sometimes my husband's role in my life reminds me of some of the things that I never resolved between my mother and me. I feel bad about the way I treated my mother. I have not always been the best wife either. I was the oldest in my family and a spoiled child. I have been brought to my knees due to many of the things I have gone through and done. I am certain there is a purpose behind it and if I make the right choices I can be more as God wants me to be. Things that come easy are not as valuable as the things you accomplish through sacrifice and perseverance.