Although medicine was my most recent regret, I am beginning to regret not studying my first passion - Programming.

It was six years ago last time I did something major in programming. I won't tell what it was to protect my identity, but it was pretty badass for an eight grader. However, just a year after my health rapidly declined, and I became psychotic. I dropped my CS passion and things just went downhill from the point for my career.

So long story short, I cannot get a job as a programmer now. I really wish I could but I cannot go back to school either. How do I get over not studying CS? It was my first passion and I was a very talented kid back then.