Personally my T is happy to read my emails and will respond when appropriate. She knows that it can be difficult for me to express myself in person because I am very guarded and like to pretend that I’m perfect and all but in reality I am a survivor of intense trauma. I think both of us agree that I am less likely to dissociate when I tell her things in an email and save is able to approach it with care in sessions. I think sometimes in order for therapy to be successful, our T’s may need to know more about our internal world than we are comfortable sharing face to face. Ask your T how he feels about your emails. Do they help him? Maybe they’re actually giving him an advantage while working with you. Just some thoughts. You’re not alone, I think it’s completely natural to be able to express these things in email not face to face, but that’s why you’re in therapy, to Heal and learn how to better deal with these emotions. I don’t think this can be rushed.