Yes I've had social anxiety I would say pretty damn serve. I have like no freinds because of this. I just feel so stupid, uninteressting, when I'm around people. I hate feeling this way. I dont know what to do. I'm terrified of people. People for gods sake. How the hell do you live without facing people. To me I'd be a lot happier if I didnt have to deal with people. They make me uncomrtable all the time. I feel like I'm some kinda weirdo, retard, fool in front of others and its really pissing me off. I'm tired of feeling this way. No matter what I do or how hard I try I feel like a total failure. Why am I like this? I dont konw. I feel like I was made like on the bottom of the scale. Where everyone is somehow smarter, better than me above me and then theres me wishing, hoping that I could just be like that but I'm not and I have to live with that and the shame of being that all the time. I'm miserable because of this. I hate my life. I hate myself and I hate people for being so indifferent to me I guess.