I COMPLETELY understand what you mean, ennie! The Past can't be erased but having a better Present can certainly make past mistakes easier to swallow! It's hard when we're STILL struggling and trying to find a direction and path to our life because we're not sure if things will EVER improve! But we have to keep fighting and to keep trying OUR BEST! That's ALL we humand can do after all and it's ALWAYS more than enough! Just TRY DO YOUR BEST to improve your life like divine1966 has already wisely said better than I ever could! That's all we can do after all! The Past is in the Past and even though it is hard to move one we HAVE to do it! Keep looking forward! There's a bright future ahead of ALL OF US! I'M SURE OF THAT! Just remember to NEVER GIVE UP, OK? THINGS CAN AND WILL GET BETTER! THAT'S A PROMISE! Let us know how things are going for you, ok? WE ALL CARE ABOUT YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! WISH YOU GOOD LUCK! TAKE GREAT CARE OF YOURSELF! Sending many kind, safe, sweet, warm and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU, ENNIE, JUST LIKE YOU ARE!