I feel like my abusive behavior is related to both how I was raised and to an undiagnosed mental illness that manifested itself eventually at Bipolar 1 with psychosis in my mid 40s.

Not sure if I would call it bullying. Maybe it was.

I didn't know how to respect people's boundaries or have my own respected. But I would never write about some of the things i did here or anywhere on the internet.

there is also a lot of shame about that. Did you ever do a 12 step program?