@tecomsin

I used to be terrified to even talk about how and who abused me. I first blogged about overcoming my fears I think in October 2012. It took me almost 7 full years of almost daily working on those fears to completely accept how they controlled my life to get free of them. My hypervigilence was like a noose around my neck.

For me, my mother and sisters taught me to be bullied, to bully plus to feel the controlling emotions like shame, humiliation, and so forth. Once I faced my emotions caught up in their lies and accepted them, my thinking began to straighten out and I felt less shame and humiliation.

I went to AA meetings for a while. I can't remember going through all 12 steps. One on one therapy helped me more than the aa meetings did. There were too many triggers in the meetings, plus I never knew who I was sitting next too. I never really felt safe there.

Did you do a 12 step program?