i am trying to understand who i am really....know thyself...
i would like to have my wife understand me...but that is not going to happen...
i need to understand me....i am sensitive and shy kind of...
my feelings are hurt easily....i feel like i caused my downfall..
in a way i did because i got into medicine and psychiatry and i was not ready...
for that awful responsibility for other lives....trying to help others in such distress...
and they would kill themselves....it was awful...i wanted out of there...but never got out...those persons are still with me today...the nurse...the cousin..my friend..
the young brilliant boy...