I don't think anyone here has told you that you don't have DID,just that some things you experience can and do happen in people that dont have it.You are getting different replies elsewhere and you're right,its not helpful at all.
It wouldn't bother you if someone copied your posts here and shared them on other sites?And what you're saying was being discussed?And members commented that you don't know what you're talking about,you're wrong,ignorant,etc? Of course it would.
I'm sorry you feel like you don't want to live sometimes.This is exactly what I mean by not wanting to add to the harm you're doing to yourself.Can you not see what it's doing to you? It's not helpful at all what you're doing and only you can stop doing it to yourself.