I have been doing good over the last month, not thinking about him as much and not much desire to even see him. And then the last few days I'm not sure what happened but I keep thinking about him and I want to see him. I actually couldn't believe how easy it was this time getting over him. And now I'm back to wanting to see him.

I have been trying to no avail to get another job. I need income! I think that is bringing me down. I also have no money to go on vacation anywhere AGAIN. I am sick of this predicament I am in. I really just want to get in car and drive away and start a whole new life. I have been trapped for years. I also get depressed in the summer.