I haven't posted in awhile. I've been a little short on words lately. In general, I'm doing pretty well. I've been combating a lot of work stress. I'm now working more hours to try to keep up with being so busy. I'm now working 45-50 hours per week, where before I was working 40-43. I'm glad my mood has somewhat stabilized, or I would not be able to handle it as well.

I have been struggling with a few things though, and I'm hoping maybe you all can relate. My concentration has been somewhat poor. I can't seem to watch TV or read much. My mind gets so busy, I literally will sit in silence for hours. As the weekends roll around, I'm finding I'm so tired I just want to sleep all day, and I can't get motivated to do anything. I've hardly cleaned in weeks, and now the mess is completely overwhelming. I've also been struggling with not thinking I can handle living with mental illness as time goes on. It affects me so much and people don't understand. Certain things have gotten worse in general over the years, and I feel hopeless about the future and am consistantly frustrated to the point where I'm breaking down into tears every other weekend.

This weekend I have been feeling pretty good, so I'm going to try to put some music on and tackle some of my messy house.