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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Do you think you have/had a low-grade depression? I know you said you’re feeling good this weekend, but it definitely sounds like low-grade depression—at least that’s how I feel when I’m stressed and slightly depressed.
Since you’re working so much, do you do anything after work to decompress? And can you take breaks during the day? I tend to work from 5am-1pm everyday with no lunch break. Then I leave and work from home from 3pm-6pm. (Takes me 20 mins to get to my apartment, so I’m not working from 1:20-3pm.) Rinse and repeat. The break helps. I guess that’s 60 hrs a week, and then sometimes I work on weekends. But my job (usually) isn’t high stress at all. I find it fun and it’s a hobby of mine. So I might be different.
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I'm pretty sure I probably do have low-grade depression. I'm type 2, and I feel like I pretty much deal with some depressive symptoms of varying degrees of severity literally non-stop. And it always feels different depending on what symptoms those are. I suspect too that I have some traits of avoidant personality disorder, which may be a contributing factor. I don't know if I have enough for a diagnosis, but it's definitely there. Ugh I'm literally just so tired of living with psych issues. Treatment for them only helps so much.
Typically I work 9-10 hour days with about a 15 minute break to step outside and smoke and to try to eat lunch. Then on the weekends I might do 1-3 hours of work if needed. Seems like mostly I am scrolling social media or watching YouTube to decompress. I should do more productive things. I'm a single mom with a pretty messy kid, so my house is always a disaster. It drives me nuts and stresses me out. The mess makes me stressed to be home, but at the same time I can't muster the energy and motivation to fix it. It sucks. Makes me feel like a lazy ***.