I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, OR82! Loneliness sure DOES SUCK! I'm not sure if you have ANYONE IRL who may be able to help you, but just know that we're here for you! I'd suggest to try to do something nice for yourself! I t can be something simple like eating something nice, some hobbies or anything like that! What do you like to do in your free time? Perhaps you coul try to do that to alleviate the pain a little bit! Just remember that we're here for you, ok? We're here to care about you and to listen to what you have to say! THAT'S A PROMISE! TAKE GREAT CARE OF YOURSELF! I hope you'll be able to find a good Psychiatrist soon! They're not easy to come bu but THEY ARE THERE! I'm sure you'll find the right one for you! Keep looking! TAKE GREAT CARE OF YOURSELF AND REMEMBER THAT WE CARE ABOUT YOU AS MUCH AS WE POSSIBLY CAN! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many AWESOME, kind, safe, sweet, warm, wise and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU, OR82, JUST LIKE YOU ARE! PLEASE BELIEVE THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU!