Is it really doing you any good seeking answers from different people?It's not like you're very receptive or accepting of anything anyone says anyway.You're just taking what you read and disecting,doubting,comparing and refusing all of it and going round in circles and not getting anywhere at all.

It's your choice to remain on this merry go round.It's also your choice to stop all of this and focus on yourself,your experiences,your symptoms,your struggles and work with your psychologist until your therapist returns.You're wasting precious time on all this stuff that could be used on working towards becoming stable and healing.

Instead of all this nonsense of asking all these questions,wanting opinions and then not believing or accepting anything anyway,why not just talk to your psychologist about all of it.If you don't trust or believe her then she is the one you should be discussing all of this with.She needs to know what you're thinking and feeling about it,that's what she's there for.

Why even bother seeing professionals if you would rather ask,believe and trust random people online and then not believe or trust them?Why bother seeking help at all if you're not actually willing to be helped?

Nobody online knows what's going on with you.Nobody online can help you or give you the answers you're seeking.All your answers are already within you and your treatment providers are there to help you discover them.They cant fix you or cure you,you're the one that has to do the work.YOU. But you have to be ready and willing to,and it doesnt seem you are yet.

There's no quick fix,there's no magic formula,there's no cheating,copying answers,having anyone else give you answers.There's no answers outside of you,it's all within you. When you stop looking outside of yourself and keeping yourself distracted by all this crap you may actually start feeling better.

It's all up to you though.