I'm so sorry about your hospitalization. I've learned to be really thankful that hospital support is there though.
I agree with Tamster. You can learn to manage it with some effort. I've learned to accept every bit of help I can get that will help me to manage it. You can definitely get a handle on it for periods of time. I'm currently in a stretch of almost four years with no hospital stays so that is great progress for me. It seemed like I was going in back to back for a long time.
I'm pulling for you to get better and to have stability.