Hey. Just checking in to say hi. Anybody up? I’ve been quietly reading stuff but haven’t posted in a while.

Depression is kicking my *** at the moment.
I just feel this huge weight and have motivation zero and all tasks seem too difficult. I sort of feel like I have been swallowed whole and while I know none of what I am feeling is permanent it sure as hell feels like it Right now.

Took a bath today which was a win for me. Have been listening to music more, which has helped some. Funny how some days just feel like a certain band kind of day.

I am way overdue for an appt with my pdoc. He started using some computer system and I never figured out how to set up an acct so haven’t seen him. I think I will try to call for an appt like they did in the old days. He is the last person I would want to go to when D, as he sucks and I only go there to get my RX but maybe he can help. Idk.
I don’t trust him enough to be honest anyway so what’s the point?
Well here’s hoping my mood lifts some by tomorrow. I am not gonna call out of work, bc then I will just stay home and get more depressed. Somehow I will get my *** up and out to work in the morning.
Hope everyone is doing well.