Dear T:

It is good to have these two weekly appointments before a three week break. My travel will naturally break the summer up even more. I so much appreciate that you save my weekly spot for me even though I'm sure there is another person who could use it more efficiently. You could make more money by giving my spot away and fitting me into other places in your schedule. I know that our values allign in that there are many more important things than making money. But it does make me feel cared for in a way, that you will show up for every session that I do, that things you actually say might not.

The other thing I notice lately, in addition to feeling cared for, is a couple of things you've said have really stuck with me in this past week. It's not often that you say something where the content just feels resonant, but makes me think more about that (don't mean to imply that what you say isn't significant). Just that "poison into medicine" is a quite profound understanding of how I am in the world, career and family. And that other thing you said, that when you get something in life that you really want, it makes you realize how much you didn't get it before, and that's it's own kind of loss. But I feel ready to accept what I'm being offered now: connection, intimacy, joy, happiness. Just really ready. And knowing that is the benefit of whatever's happened in the last 10 years that's led up to this. Nothing is wasted. It was all for some kind of thing, and I'm glad. And grateful. And in awe of the whole thing.