I too am recently going through a breakup of a toxic relationship that should have been done a long time ago. We have been done for about a month now and I am finally starting to heal and realize that I deserve so much better. When you are with someone for two years of your life, of course there are going to be times that you will miss them and that's okay. However, what's not okay is putting yourself back in a situation to be mistreated just because you are lonely. I have realized that although he had claimed to love me, he really couldn't have if he was willing to cheat on me time and time again and put himself in a position where he could lose me. If you truly love someone you wouldn't be able to do that. I am finally realizing my worth, and I can definitely say that it is his loss not mine.