(((((((((((((((((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))))))))))))) I really sounds like you can use some good support right now. Can you let in those that can help you? Sometimes I feel that I have clearly conveyed something to someone to only find that they didn't understand. Pleaes give your t a call and tell her how much you are hurting.

It sounds like right now you are so emotionally raw that all sorts of things are going to remind you of SI. I hope that as you work through things this abates.

Please reach out to those that can help you. I will be thinking of you.

BB