Dear Dr. S,

I'm back to loving you and seeing you as mommy.

Was that terror on your face about my question, like am I serious about it and you don't know what to do? If it is terror, was it at having to tell me no or at maybe us actually doing it? You made it sound like it was perfectly fine for me to do it at my house, so why not there? What would be the harm? If I don't ask, then there can't be a yes - that's what you taught me so far. Honestly, I'm not sure I could handle a no, so I probably won't ask. So, if you decide after some thoughts that it could be a yes, I think you'll have to bring it up.

I'm also worried that if I don't ask you I'll get mad at myself or at you or both. Sigh.

I love you,
-me