Each time people can't understand me I am feeling pain in result I hurt the people who are really close to my heart
I sent them most hurtful words, backlash and the most cruel side if me
I'm an INFJ and somehow people can't understand this makes me so angry and results in pain
I can't hurt people but I can't help if people can't understand me
I love them so much and I'm so short tempered
I kill my loved ones with my most hurtful words
Is it a sign I have mental illness? Or does it relate with my life events? Or is it just my bad nature?
I don't know but it has been happened so many times
I can't take it anymore to hurt people
I've been losing so many people whom I loved the most due to this behavior
Can anyone help me?
How to manage my anger?
Why I'm feeling numb killing others by words but after few moments I will apologize and sorry
It feels like I have lost my mind
I broke someone's heart and then apologize like nothing was happened
Please anyone suggest me something to cope with this problem

Thank you in advance