Hi all, I'm new. I've been searching out other message boards looking for advice because now it's getting to me and I'm not confident yet to bring it up to my therapist in fear of them thinking I was trying to play games

I needed therapy, but I wasn't so eager to check things out until I learned about transference from a book I was reading. I actually have been obsessed with a certain person from my past for years and when I heard about transference in therapy I seriously wanted to experience it so I could feel all those strong feelings I had from my past.

I even searched out a therapist that reminded me of them. And guess what? I succeeded. I'm feeling it and it's both amazing and terrible at the same time. I'm in too deep. And when I expressed these feelings to them, I played dumb and acted like I had no idea what transference was all about.

This might not be a big deal, but now I feel like I'm living a lie or something. I'm thinking about explaining everything to my therapist next time we meet, but I fear I'll piss them off. I'm afraid they'll think I wasted their time and energy. I never lied about anything else, just the transference crap. Do you think it's worth mentioning? Or should I just go with the flow and focus on my other problems?