Hello MelodicMelody,

so sorry you are struggling with those unpleasant feelings. Sounds like you may be living with some sort of mood disorder which needs to be assessed by a doctor. It is important to note is that the sooner we investigate an imbalance in our health, the easier it is to develop a plan in order to regain balance. This is particularly true for emotional health. I live with depression. Sometimes if I wait too long to address it when it gets worse, the longer it takes for me to get back on track. Does that make sense? I hope you can find a kind doctor.

I wish you peace, hope, and good health. You deserve it. Your present does not have to be your future; things can get better with some help.