It is hard to answer certain question, June55. But sometimes the answer isn't important. Sometimes we just need other people to understand. Sometimes we just need other compassionate people! I completely agree with what vesseloflove has already wisely said better than I ever could! Please DO feel free to share what you're struggling with if you feel like it! You have no obligation to do so of course! I'm thinking of you! Feel free to PM me anytime! WE'LL ALL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! I hope things will get better soon for you! Sending many AWESOME, kind, safe, sweet, warm, wise and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU, JUNE55, JUST LIKE YOU ARE!