I agree with Bizi, none of this is your fault. You are also worthy of love and being happy no matter what your physical appearance is. It really sucks that the med options often have these side effects. Also I hope no one was actually saying those things about you, because if so I wish I could have had some words with them!! If you are feeling unsafe please get some help and don't wait for it to get worse. I hope the feeling passes soon for you. By the way congrats on the graduation and having three kids who graduated!