I won't tell you to do anything you don't already know. But I can tell you my experience, which you may not know, and it will be helpful for me.

I have been hospitalized more times than I can count, some due to feeling suicidal, some due to voices telling me to kill myself. I have tried many things, and nothing has really helped up to my standard. Notice I said "my standard". I want to be that idealistic happy but is that even possible?! Is this just my normal? Then again what is normal?! These are questions that can't be answered, because they are different across all cultures and races and sexes and religion and disability and anything else you can think of.

This is all to say. Be you! Be how you see yourself. But go for progress not perfection.

I know it's hard now, but I sure hope it gets better for all of us.

But that is how puzzclar sees it. I mean no harm, or distress. And this perspective is from a majority group person, with some oppression too.