Very very anxious this week, especially when I lie down in the evening. Working on two jobs and both keep sending me messages wanting me to do more. They are both jobs that require concentration. I am seriously worried about a family member and am spending a lot of time working on the situation. It is one of the reasons, I do not have time to work as much as I need to. I worried about them as I went to bed (keep taking a half Xanax at bedtime until I have taken about 3 halfs, prior to these two jobs, I would take a half Xanax about 3 days a week). This person was the first thing on my mind this morning. I am worried they are suicidal and hope I find them safe today.

Usually only talk to my sister on Sunday because I go to bed earlier than her plus there is a three hour time difference and she works so much. I actually thought to call her last night when I couldn't sleep. She gave me a pep talk. It helped. Without it, I might have been up all night. I love her so much.