Are there ways you are able to go into a therapy appointment ready and prepared. I sometimes go in with my defenses up and it takes a while for us to take those defenses down. I cant see the clock in the room room and T takes total responsibility for keeping track of time. She is very lax on mine because I am her last appointment of the day and doesnt mind going over. So we end about 10 minutes late which we have discussed and okay with. Last night I bent around to look at the clock and realized it was 25 minutes late. We discussed it a bit. Apparently we spent the first hour discussing my week etc. Then at about the hour mark I brought up the anniversary of Ts death being this weekend. Then I said something that should have been quick but went deep very quickly.. and emotional.

One of the things we discussed in that I on occasion have a wall up and it takes time to warm up. She respects the wall as a defense mechanism that has totally protected me and been a good thing. The question is how to go in without that wall so we can do the real work.

I respect her personal time. She mentioned that is okay that she is late but then mentioned that the only thing that is effected is the time she gets home to her family again it isnt a huge issue. We discussed if she should hold the 1 hour limit more so that I also dont get flooded with emotions.

So the point if this long. Have you found a way to be emotionally ready when you enter an appointment?