@MickeyCheeky, thank you soooo much!!!! @Fuzzybear, thank you so much as well!!!

@luvyrself, thank you too!!!! I'm afraid I don't want to divulge details of what's happening in my marriage right now. I don't want to hear any negative input that will influence me. Meaning, I know people will most likely tell me to leave him. But I need to work this out for myself, & suffice it to say, I've been questioning whether it will last.... and we JUST got married only a few weeks ago! We've been having many problems, some of which I knew and saw, some of which I am only seeing now. The thought of having to end this sooner than later made me beyond depressed and suicidal feeling.

The good news is: the massive depression I felt has mainly passed, and now I am just coping. but still, I am very depressed about this.