I am up late at night, trying to make myself tired enough to sleep all night long without a panic attack or horrible nightmare that visits me daily around 4:30 am. Unlike Cable TV, each night is a new dream. It's been that way since February. I can't find anything to stop it. It's making me feel depressed -- no I am depressed. But which came first? Depression or the complex PTSD? I have new meds that get me to sleep, but nothing to unplug the 4:30 am movie. I feel I am deteriorating twice as fast as I should be aging. Sure I can fake it during the day, but the nights are so hard I feel I am in a loosing battle. Anyone with experience with on-line counselling? Any good? IMHO, the night is when my feelings bubble to the top --is that the best time to talk to someone? When the shields and deflectors are down? It is so scary and for me , so shameful. How much of that colors everything? The stigma of shame on feeling poorly?