I continued my exposure exercises with my T. The exposure was about social physical contact - so today was us sitting together with our arms touching, shoulder to shoulder. It felt more pleasant than I expected, despite my nervousness and anxiety symptoms. I really liked feeling how real my T was: warm, alive, breathing and next to me. It helped a little to breathe in time with her. But I felt self-conscious about it too. I find it hard to lean into pleasant sensations and emotions. It's really strange to feel positive emotion in therapy, but I know now that therapy encompasses experiencing all emotions, not just the negative ones. That said, I'm keen on continuing the exposures in the next few sessions.